not dead

Dear friends,

Today has been a good day. Things regarding the dance experience have continued to improve, such that over tea this afternoon we realized that, the way things have turned out was the best possible thing that could have happened.

So good, in fact, that these kinds of things don't happen outside of movies. Except they have.

The truth is, that this whole mess has been nagging at us for a year, maybe a year and a half. And though I'm not sure we have "closure," we have resolution. This is good enough, and it's as if a great weight has been lifted from our shoulders. A weight that we didn't know we had.

It's hard on you when your stress release mechanism, and one of your outlets for physical activity become cooped by angst and stress, and it's been so long.

So I'm happy.

One of the things that we did a few weeks ago, was that we held a ritual burning of some objects that were symbolic of some of the more stressful parts of the recent past.

And now there's resolution.

So we think (and I support this) that I need to have some sort of positively focused ritual to encourage a positive outcome to this graduate school application. I'm thinking about what I can do, but I'm not sure. Seems like the place to start is with some serious cleaning and reorganization of my crap. I have clothes to donate, paper to recycle, and so forth. Cleansing seems like a good place to start.

I'm also considering ditching tealart as a project because I think I can run everything that I could possibly ever want to do off of, and I'd rather not further divide my time/energy. Maybe. I'm not sure. Unless I can find a good executive editor. But I have to keep it around for email purposes for a year or two anyway, so I don't know. It's just a thought.

If anyone has a good suggestion for a ritual some such, I'd be willing to hear it.

In other news, I replied to a lot of email messages on ravelry, I'm sorry that I took so long to do this, but it felt really good to get all these messages out to people who had written really kind notes. Also I got more than a little bit of encouragement to work on getting my patterns written and ready for sale and distribution. There's nothing to encourage you to be creative and productive than people asking for ways to give you money. This is the problem to have. So the end result is that I have a lot of work to do and I'm very much looking forward to the opportunity to do it.

That's what I have right now. I'll be back tomorrow, in a less reflective sort of way. Be well everyone, that's an order.

Onward and Upward!

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